I Bid You Adieu

Am I actually going to write this?

For the whole world to see?

The end of this year

Is a blessing to me

I've made drastic changes

To a life gone stale

A life that was literally

Killing me

But in this it has failed

I met a man

Who lent me his strength

At a time I needed it most

The distance or length

That we are apart

Makes no difference to me

For he has my heart

To 2013 I bid you adieu

Farewell to the moments

Here's a parting kiss for you

I welcome 2014 with open arms

And fly to my man

With his devilish charms

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2013

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Seraphim - Curiosity

Through the darkness

I glimpsed a fiery glow

Slowly I inched closer

My curiosity had to know

As I neared

My mind conjured

Every scenario I feared

My body warmed

From the heat of the blaze

I felt no pain

Just a bit dizzy, in a daze

On I went

My steps did not falter

Flames slashed, singed and rent

My garb, and still

It did not hamper

Me, For I felt

Compelled you see

To finish this through

Until finally

I stood in front

Of a sight so extraordinary

I am surprised I did not turn blue

With my heart

Pounding in my ears

I was afraid

I would not hear

The message he would give

Eyes of fiery red

I will not soon forget

For as long as I live

Between wings of gold, folded

Over a blazing form

Behind him feathers twinkled

A glittering storm

Then I heard

A voice thundering through

Lips unseen

"For all that is holy,

With all that is holy,

From all that is holy

I have come for you..."

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Blood of Blue

I have floated

Lost

In an endless

Turmoil

Of my faults

Searching

Crying out

With outstretched hands

Blood of blue dripping

From my inner scream

That sometimes

I don't know

What is real

Or what it is I dream

On high

I looked down

Watched the world

Go round

Wrote a stanza or two

Wrapped

In my feathered wings

Stained

With my blood

And then

I spied

You

Your eyes of blue

Crinkling with laughter

As your words

Flew across the page

That day

Was the start

Of a brand new age

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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The Lines

The lines

I hate the lines

Straight, crooked

Curved, crossing

This way and that

They show character

What the hell does that mean?

All they show is age.

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Still

Thousands of miles separate

Still, I hear your voice

Living different lives

Still, I hear your voice

My eyes cannot stop

The flow of tears

When I hear your voice

My heart wants to hate

When I hear your voice

Can you not feel pity

For my poor soul?

Who is fool enough

To love you?

To give up my heart completely?

No one else can take your place

It's unbearable

My thoughts

My imaginings of what you are doing

Untamed

The beauty that surrounds you

For you to indulge

As you please

While I fade away

Become nothing but a memory

And still, I hear your voice

I hear your voice promising forever

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Tolerable

It's a cold winter night

As a I stifle

A shiver

I pull my jacket

Even tighter

Around me

As if it would

Warm me

Any better

I look out

Into the blackness

Distorted

By my heat

I wish morning

Would come

It's too cold

To sleep

I roll over

Trying to find comfort

But this hard

Old leather seat

Just isn't comfortable

Tonight

I wish the sun

Would rise

It would make

The cold

So much more

Tolerable

A little warmth

Would be a

Welcome respite

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Ancient

I am one

Of the ancients

Rooted to this earth

For thousands

Of years

My arms

Reached out

Heavenward

In praise

Once upon a time

So long ago

Now I cry

Silent tears

I stand alone

My family and friends

Long gone

Cut down

In their prime

Until all that is left

Is me

Rigid solitude

In howling plea

For life to return

To how it use to be

I am

Surrounded by tar

And metal

Contraptions that roll

Expelling noxious fumes

Slowly taking its toll

Animals

The two legged kind

Pass me by

Some stop to ask and pray

Protected by my shade

Take a piss

Then walk away

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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It Rises

The bile

Is slowly

Rising

No mere words can

Describe

How I feel

Why

Must I struggle

Within myself

It tears

And heals

And tears again

Like

A roller coaster ride

It terrifies

While

It exhilarates

And still

The bile

Is slowly

Rising

How many times

Can a wound

Be ripped

Open

Stitched

And be torn asunder

Again and again

Before

It can no longer mend

And remains

A gaping hole

Festering unseen

Still it rises

The first stab

Is always

The most

Excruciating

The attacks

Thereafter

Leave you numb

It rises

And rises

And rises

Until you

Can

No longer

Do anything

But spew forth

The venom

In your soul

The pain

In your heart

The hatred

Concealed

Undetected

Within

Your form

Until

At last

You

Are spent

Relieved

And you

Are once again

Free

To open

Yourself

To a new

Experience

A new

Adventure

A new

Love

(Written on Dec. 13, 2003)

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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I Was Wrong

I look to the moon

For answers

It's cool glow

Soothes me

On this warm

Tropical night

I sit at my window

Beckoning her

In her wisdom

To reveal

That what

I search for

Will soon be

In sight

Oh my love

I've told you

"Let me lie in your arms

And feel heaven

Even for just one night

For it will last me

A lifetime"

But I

Was not right

I was wrong

For one night

Is not enough

It is just a teaser

An appetizer

A preview

Of what my life

Could be

A future

Of you and me

For all eternity

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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A Future Alone

I hear the loneliness

That you scream

Softly

In their ears

I hear the crying

As you bleed tears

Of pain

I am helpless

To do anything

But feel shame

I see the patterns

That you draw

In your house of straw

The wolves

Have blown it down

But still you insist

To go another round

My hands are tied

You are your own

All I see is

A future where

You are alone

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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In Your Mind's Eye (Originally Written August 16, 2003)

Once again you have broken my heart

Dreams are shattered

Ripped apart

Why do I love you?

Why do I care?

The pain inside is too hard to bare

My love you have taken in your cold grasp

Wielded a knife

And slashed it in half

I trembled in fear and rage

I'm frightened of what I'll find

When I turn the page

Will you be there

Standing above

What is left of my remains?

Poised and self-assured

That I am powerless, beaten and tamed?

You snicker with glee

Because
In your mind's eye

You have exactly what you want in me

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Turned Me Away (Originally Written October 3, 2005)

I would have drowned

Willingly

In the deep green sea

Swirling with excitement

Turbulence and uncertainty

Thrilled in the passionate pounding

Of the violent waves

Against my bruised form

The iridescent foam

Tickling and teasing

Dissolving

At my touch

Keeping me

In a never ending cycle

A nightmare

That would have

Gradually driven me

To insanity

I stumbled

Into a clear

Glassy lake

It seduced me

with its purity

I floated

On

Its soft steady

Ripples

Its warm water

Gently

Enveloping me

Into its fold

Turned me away

From the sea

And filled me

With promises

Of serenity

Swimming away

in peaceful

Eternity

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Mantodea

Mantodea

Of Bologna

Flew into

My arms

To do

The rhumba

I told him

"No!"

My hand

Held

'Like so'

"I am strictly

Absolutely salsa!"

He turned

To me

With his

Large wide set

Eyes

And said

"You are

So vanilla."

With fire

I did not

Know I had

I kicked ball

Changed

Him

All the way

to Manila

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2013

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Run Far Away (Originally Written November 26, 2004)

Run, run, run away

For you see

In his lustful eyes

And beguiling ways

A future

He can not disguise

Full of hurt

And wanton needs

Full of obsession

And misery

It is best

To run away

And protect yourself

From the onslaught

Of lies

And duplicity

Better to set sail

For smooth

Calm waters

Than sail

Towards

A brewing storm

That will leave you

Broken and torn

Only to limp home

To mend and patch

The shattered pieces

Of your life

Oh, but oh

The mortal eyes

Can see

And the mind

Can know

But it is

The heart

The lust

The heat

Between

Your thighs

That sets

Your feet racing

Towards

A road

That leads

Nowhere

But a

Dead end

A crippled heart

And lost dreams

(Written November 26, 2004)

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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She Has Arrived (Haiyan)

She has arrived

All swirling fury

Intense

In her ferocity

She has made

Her presence known

Surging through

Our lives

Affecting everything

We own

With no compassion

Choosing without

Prejudice

Complete

In her fairness

Discards any and all

As if

Of no value

No consequence

Any presumption

Of surviving

Her wrath

Without

Seeking shelter

Is your folly

I will not aid

In your lunacy

I watch through

Open window

As she tugs

At my hair

Her fingers

Slices

My strands

Urging me

To meet her

In her element

I turn

My back

As she howls

In outrage

She rains

Her terror

Swipes what

She can reach

Planters fall

Jagged pieces

Lay at my feet

Patiently

I will wait

Her anger

Will soon abate

She will

Move on

To greener

Pastures

And the sun

Shall once again

Come out

Of hiding

For he has

No love for her

Nor does he

Have the energy

Of fighting

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Brewing

A storm

Is brewing

I can feel it

In my bones

I look up

The azure sky

Clear of groans

The white

Cottony clouds

Turn tail

And run

As if dodging

Unseen stones

The wind is picking up

Blowing the beads

Of sweat

From my neck

To parts unknown

Swirling violence

Cackles

Like twisted crones

A storm

Is brewing

I can feel it

In my bones

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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You Were There

I walked in

The pub

"Ye Olde King's Head"

In Santa Monica,  CA

To meet a friend

You were there

The girls

And I sat in

A booth

Chatting

British accents

Everywhere

You were there

We talked

About our lives

My moving in

A week

To foreign shores

While drinking tea

And wine

You were there

Your smiling eyes

Of blue

Stared into mine

Your laughter

Rumbled deep in

My soul

While we were

Treated to

Sticky toffee pudding

You were there

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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A Pirate's Life For Me

When I was

But a wee lass

Me dad

An old salt

Did take me

Out to sea

A Man-O-War

She was a beaut

Manned by corsairs

With long

Flowing hair

It ruined

All landlubbers

For me

With a heave ho

We weighed anchor

And hoisted the mizzen

Set sail for parts unknown

In search of booty

Ripe for plunderin'

I learned to love

Salmagungi

As I grew

Me sea legs

And grow I did

On that

Man-O-War

Land for me

Was no more

I can weave

A merry yarn

But I'll not

Blow the gaff

And take the risk of

Me hangin'

From the yardarm

Or

Keel haulin'

'Neath the hull

A pirate's life

Is hard

But ne'er dull

It is the only life

For me

And one day

I will be

Buried in

Davey Jones locker

'Neath the sea

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2013

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Luna

Luna

Dark as a starless night

On a new moon

You slinked silently into sight

With feline grace

By your side

A cunning serpent

Slithered by coldly

It's clear intent

To strike boldly

Then vanish

Without a trace

Why have you brought

Chaos into our midst?

My mind screamed

You think an innocent tryst?

You naive fool

You were a play thing

Nothing but a tool

Oh how I feared

As I looked upon

Your guileless face

Befriend not the devil

My dear Luna

For he will charm

Cajole

And disarm

Until you are left

A sorry case

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Missive To My Lover

To my lover dear

Where my heart doth dwell

May I whisper in your ear

Of how I love you well

May I kiss your brow

To soothe your pain

If I could, I would, right now

Make your troubles wane

So read this missive

As I pray

For it is all I have to give

I just wanted to say

That I pray

Tomorrow is brighter

And brighter still

Each and every day

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Pantoum - Tis Difficult

Tis difficult to bare my truths

For I would have to look upon my flaws

And find myself diminished

In my eyes

For I would have to look upon my flaws

The horrors that will reflect

In my eyes

As the tears well

The horrors that will reflect

My mind will reject

As the tears well

My pride will hold fast, for

My mind will reject

What is plain to see

My pride will hold fast, for

Tis difficult to bare my truths

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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My Side

This is me

My words aren't pretty

But they have a story

They can tell

This is for you

You know who

I've seen all

That you do

Hiding behind

A blank face

But your words

I know too well

These lips

You have kissed

This body

You have touched

But your time

Your precious time

It wasn't mine

I gave you

My love

Unconditionally

There was no one

Above

Years

Years

I gave

Tears

Tears

So many tears

Enough to fill

My grave

But you

Wouldn't give me

What I craved

You strung me along

Every day a new song

Minutes

Hours

Days

I spent alone

Wishing

You were

By my side

If you loved me

As you say

You would have

Found a way

My love has withered

It has died

That

I can no longer hide

All the time

I spent alone

I created

A new song

Now my lips

My body

My time

Belongs to me

Because I am free

To choose

I choose

To be happy

So spiteful man

Spill hate

As much

As you can

You are finally

Spending the time

That should have

Been mine

But your words

Can not touch me

For I no longer care

Just know

That I know

That behind

Your words

Is the love

You should

Have shared

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Mr. Hummingbird

Mr. Hummingbird

Dressed in all

Your finery

Gems of rubies

Catch the light

As you fly by

Swooping down

Chasing away

Your rivals

A fierce raptor

With sword aloft

From the sky

You come a-calling

Several times a day

Standing sentinel

Across the way

I can almost believe

It is my company

That you love

But alas

It is only

My sweet nectar

That you crave

You greedy

Greedy knave

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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The Cold

As I lay

Bruised and battered

Shattered

Tears of blue

Torrential rain

Chest torn

Cavity decayed

I saw an image

Blurred, misshaped

A hand

Held out to me

To help me stand

Strong arms

Burdened

By my weight

We walked

Together

Through rocky land

I looked up at him

And smiled

Through teary gaze

He sighed

As our lips met

We felt

The twinge of

The cold melt

Inside

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Silence

My first 'Spoken Word'.  I hope you like it.

"Silence"

In the silence
There is confusion

The silence
Has brought conclusion

In the silence
Broken illusion

The silence
Exclusion

Keep your lips sealed, my love
I prefer it that way

In the silence
Is our goodbye

Our silence
Has let our love die

Silence


Allene Angelica
=^-^=

Sweets

They come

In all sizes

Large and small

They even come

In jumbo sizes

I love them all

My lips

Haven't

Wrapped themselves

Around one

In such a long while

You know

When I finally

Get my hands

On one

My smile

Will be a mile

Wide

Yes, sweets

They come

In all sizes

Large and small

And yes

I love them all

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Danny

Those eyes

Glanced my way

Deep and brooding

They sang to me

When we first met

Your fingers

Long and slender

Played a melody

On my skin

But it wasn't our time, not yet

We whispered

In the dark

Our hopes and dreams

Dancing in the park

We would never be apart

So sure, we placed our bet

But

Something got in the way

You turned left

And I turned right

You are now a faded memory

Of that wonderful night

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Set Free

I hear the rain

Tap...tap...tap

Outside my window pane

It's a dreamy afternoon

Gray and full of gloom

But in my room

I see colors

Bright and cheery

The tether has unwound

My spirit is set free

To roam without bounds

I smile

And quiver with delight

And without a sound

I shake the shackles off

And set my sights

For pleasures and treasures

That abound

All around

Me

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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The Temptress

Oh wicked temptress

With her sultry dark eyes

She giggles as she wiggles

And gazes at me

With that devilish grin

She whispers

With her thick full lips

That she has plans for me

"Oh yes, yes, yes"

Says my fiendish twin

"No!" I cry

"But you must

Before you die!"

Was their reply

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Frozen

It started

In my toes

This creeping cold

It so very slow -

ly wound it's way

Up

One shaking limb

At a time

Icy fingers

Snaked up my spine

I felt it

Squeeze

Through my ribcage

Pushed passed my lungs

To my erratic heart

Oh how it stung

It's talons

Gripped it tight

As I lay frozen

In fright

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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I Was Born

I was born of earth

My maiden a rising flame

The moon ablaze

Thundered through the eventide

As the goddess of love and beauty

On her leonine steed rode stealthily by

A warrior with my trusty bow

Ready to battle

For the weak and trodden low

Yes, I was born of earth and fire

Molten lava flows through my veins

Mercurial by nature

It is not wise to raise my ire

Unless you can temper the heat

Without fanning the flames

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Your Words

Your words

Clinging to the breeze

Whispered in the light

Of the full moon

A deep throaty rumble

Full of sweet nothings

I feel muttered too soon

My skin you say

Is as soft as raw cotton

My face a desert rose

My voice like trickling water

To a thirsty man's ear

Your words

Soft and resonant

Tickled my flesh

Full of promises

Full of love

But as I feared

We were much too fresh

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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The Glue Is Gone

The glue is gone

Has melted with the heat

Of the sun

We have scattered

Like leaves

Caught hold

By the whispering wind

Promises

In distant lands

The thread thin

And pulled taut

Can snap

With the lightest tap

The glue is gone

We have all run

Away

To far off shores

We know the score

To hold together

Brings nothing

But tragedy

Disaster

Though some

Have strayed

Not too far

Memories to be

Replayed

The glue is gone

A drop, a smidgen

None

I will fire the gun

To start my race

To fly to another

Place

Where I will land?

I leave that

In God's hands

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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My Constant Companion

My constant

Companion

You have my heart

Soulful golden eyes

Full of tenderness

As you gaze at me

I cannot think

Of

When we must part

You sleep in my room

When you can

Or outside my door

I can hear you

As you slumber

You will not leave

My side

As I go about my day

You watch

As I type away

*Allene Angelica* 

=^_^=

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The Beginning

I squint my eyes

Through the bright summer haze

My feet bare

As I walk along a dirt path

In a daze

To my right

I pass an old fountain

Pinpricks of fright

Crawl up my spine

Dry and cracked

The years

Have not been kind

To my left

A teasing glimpse

Of a scene

Bright and green

Light reflecting

From emerald tips

My heart flutters

It skips a beat

As my feet stop walking

I have reached the end

The end

That opens

To the beginning

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Come To Me

Come to me, my love

Come to me, wild and free

Come with reckless abandon

With passion

Hot and full of force

Touch me, excite me, feel me

And we will soar to the heavens above

When we land there will be tenderness

But the embers will still be lit

Ready to start again

A fire that can burn for eternity

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Mother Tree

Mother tree

Has given birth to me

With her love

I have blossomed

From a seedling

To a tree

Along with my sisters

Three

We bear the fruit

Of her labors

To nourish

And enjoy the favors

Of the birds

That sing joyously

Nestled sweetly

On our limbs

Oh mother tree

We thank thee

For the life

You have given

To us three

Our delicate branches

Reach out caressingly

To honor thee

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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My Stomach's A Rumblin'

My stomach's a rumblin'

As I was stumblin'

Outta bed

Need my coffee fix

To clear my foggy head

Should I make myself some breakfast?

I look in my kitchen

The pickins' are slim

I'll head down to my favorite diner

And treat myself instead

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Soon

Soon my eyes

Will glimpse

My one desire

My arms will envelop

The one I yearn

My lips will kiss

His burning fire

Oh give me the strength

To never tire

For I never want to sleep

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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There Was A Time

There was a time

When I no longer had the will

To care

I floated through life

A ghost

With blinders on

The thumping of my heart steady

Thu-thump, thu-thump

Excitement was rare

No emoticons

My expression carved in stone

You couldn't tempt me

Not a single bit

If you walked in bare

Not a word written

Not a song sung

Not a muscle twitched

Or bell aching to be rung

Is this my life?

No love or strife?

No hate or desire?

No passion for any living soul?

Emptiness is all I saw

A hollowness

I could only withdraw

Further and further

Into my mind

Filling my dreams

Of memories

Of there was a time

When I was young and carefree

Nothing could wipe

The smile from me

Of emotions so intense

All I saw was the color red

Having the time of my life

There was no time for bed

One day as I sat restless

Surfing online

I came upon some verses

My heart skipped a beat

My lips smiled

I wiggled in my seat

I read more

And then some more

Do I dare?

To write my words there?

There was a time

When I accepted the dare

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Down Below

A black void has filled my soul

An inky emptiness

That echoes voiceless moans

Creeping ever so silently

It's time to pay the toll

I am numb

I am struck dumb

Is this how it begins?

Evil answers

With a knowing grin

You are mine

For all of time

I know what's in your heart

It calls to me

We can never be apart

My mouth a silent O

I scream, I scratch

I kick him below

He laughs at my puny attempts

As he grabs at my arms

Yanking

Pulling

Dragging

Me away

As I reach out in alarm

For sanity to save me

From my madness

Nails digging into the earth

Praying for rebirth

My mouth a silent O

I scream a voiceless scream

As I kick him down below

*Allene Angelica*

=^_^=

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Dancing

I walk into the dance studio

That I've walked into every day

The walls covered in mirrors

Shimmering and glistening

My reflection I've seen every which way

It's my second home

My place of refuge

I am never alone

The music starts to thump

My heart jumps

My body moves

Bumping to the groove

I am taken away

To my happy place

No one can wipe

The silly grin off of my face

I grind and slide

I spin, I glide

The mirrors show all

There is nowhere to hide

I shimmy, I shake

The sweat pouring

Down my face

'Gimme, gimme, gimme'

We yell

Having a blast

Even though it's hot as hell

Dancing is a part of me

I could never stop

Wherever I am

In this amazing world

I have to dance

Or I will no longer be

Me

*Allene Angelica*

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Sent from my iPad

When I Close My Eyes

My heart constricts

Mid beat

When I close my eyes

And I see blue

Fiery fingers

Caress my skin

Thrilling parts unseen

When I close my eyes

And I see blue

That wicked smile

Tantalizes and teases

Me erect

When I close my eyes

And I see blue

Those eyes

Burn me

Through and through

I am aflame

When I close my eyes

And I see you

--

*Allene Angelica*

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No One Home

Tricky, tricky my sweet

Hands grasping, pulling me in tight

Oh you know how to do it just right

Kisses full of passion

From lips full of lies

Oh you think you've got me

By my contented sighs

Words

Full of empty promises

Fill my ears

I've learned my sweet

From an expert

Oh you think you are so neat

You've taught me well

Didn't you know?

Ain't love swell

There'll be no one home

Next time you ring the bell

It's your turn to wait, alone

-- 

*Allene Angelica*

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