Blitz Attack

Tumescent

From the blitz attack

Gasped silent

An explosion of

Incandescent flames

Fiery heat

My tongue bears your name

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I'm Undone

I'm undone

Memories come

Unbidden

Why not stay

Hidden

Tucked away

In the deepest

Recesses

Of my mind

My lips

Unkind

Spurt unfiltered

Thoughts

To unburden

My pain

Storming words

Thundering rain

It's not even

Worth it

Not even

A little bit

So why

Must I

Hurt

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Nightmares

Trapped

In a maze

No way out

A mafia

Of circuitry

Buzzing

Buzzing

Buzzing

Flickering

Images

Moving

Pictures

Upstairs

My response

A ticker

Going pitter patter

In a cage

Ready to

Explode

As I rode

In a car

But couldn't

Get far

The buzzards

Circling

Turning heads

I scream

My eyes

Snap open

Thank God

I thought

I was broken

But they

Were just

Nightmares

Relief floods

As I stare out

At another

Cloud-filled

Day

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Whet

I live

And breathe

For

The surge

That flows

Through

My cells

That sizzles

My nerves

That curls

My toes

That whets

My appetite

With

Every

Thought

Of

You

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Horseshoe Simile

Though you smile

Lips upturned

Horseshoe simile

The sadness inside

Jogs out for miles

I sit in quiet solitude

Waiting

For you

To open up to me

You pivot away

To adjust your facade

Speaking of lightness

And gaiety

But, behold, your eyes

They tell no lies

They declare

Your misery

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Three Little Things

I was asked to participate in the #threelittlethings challenge on G+.  (I decided to copy it on to my blog to record what was important to me at this stage of my life.)  Basically, it is to list three things a day for three days, for which I am grateful, and invite three people to do the same.  (I left the names out of the blog.). I'm starting my first day with the heavies...

The three things I'm grateful for:

Day one:

1. Meeting my love, Phil Hall.

2. My children; Angelique, Shane and James.

3. My life

The three things I'm grateful for on this second day of #threelittlethings are:

Day Two:

1. My health, so far so good.  Knock on wood.

2. My hat, protects me from the burning rays of the sun and just all

    around cool.  :-)

3. My iPad, with it I have written countless poems and started

    many a story.  Some I've completed but many more unfinished.

The three things I'm grateful for on this third and last day of my #threelittlethings challenge are:

Day Three:

1. My pocket wifi - Internet wherever I go...as long as there is a signal.  (Can't

    stop the signal Mal. - 'Serenity' movie reference for all not in the know ;-p )

2. Sunscreen - Speaks for itself

3. Mosquito Repellent - Keeps the bloodsucking bitches away from

  me...ooops...did I say that?  I meant unwanted pests... (It's the female of

  the species that drinks blood.)

Green

The blood

Has blackened green

It runs greedily

Through their veins

No time to congeal

As they conjure

Magically steal

Eyes burn

Can see no more

I'm ashamed

This is what I came for?

So sad

It's too bad

Nothing good

Ever comes

From

The gimmies

I don't care

How much you shimmy

The lyrics

'I give to the needy

And not the greedy'ª

On replay

In my head

Sometimes

I feel like

This world

Is better off

Dead

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ª'My Lovin' - En Vogue 1992

I Shall Roam

The world is beckoning

Enticing me to explore

Oh, I would if I could

I would walk out that door

Then reality sets in

I have responsibilities

I can not give in

But squelching the desire

Is not good for the soul

I must feed the fire

Even if only a little

To see the world

Is my goal

One step, two steps

The third makes three

Where will my

First destination be?

Be it with friend

Be it with lover

Be it alone

I've taken my steps

The world

I shall roam

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Formidable Foe

Time

A formidable foe

As I gaze

At this scene

So quiet

And serene

Lush

In its

Tropical greens

I long

To explore

This wild

Landscape

My dreamy

Escape

From the

Confines

Of my

Solitary mind

My laughter

Echoing

From

The tree tops

As I break

Another of

My flip flops

Stomping

Skipping

Tip-toeing

In this scene

Of

Tropical greens

Smiling

Sunbeams

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My Adventures in Cautery (Part Two)

*** Caution - Before attempting to try to do any of the following treatments that I've described below...please...please...please...do a patch test before using any of these products on your entire face. ***

On May 19th, I started an intense beauty regimen of at home peeling and whitening to aggressively fade the brown spots/scars on my face.  Three nights a week (Mon-Wed) I swiped on a peeling agent that contained tretinoin (Tretinoin is the carboxylic acid form of vitamin A and is also known as all-trans retinoic acid or ATRA. - Wikipedia) and hydroquinone (In human medicine, hydroquinone is used as a topical application in skin whitening to reduce the color of skin. - Wikipedia) (each 100mL contains 25mg of tretinoin and 2g of hydroquinone) over my entire face like you would a toner or astringent with a cotton pad.  The rest of the week I gave my skin a break from the product.  And it's in those days when my skin would peel.  The peeling was annoying because it was unsightly but it gave me the deepest satisfaction.  The top layers of my epidermis where the spots were the darkest was peeling off and revealing a new layer of lighter skin underneath.  During the day after I washed my face I used an intense whitening facial serum that contains glutathione (Glutathione has recently been used as an inhibitor of melanin in the cosmetics industry.) and vitamin C, which I applied over my entire face.  I used it in conjunction with a placenta cream (animal placenta...I know gross right?).  Hey but if it works, it works.  The placenta cream I dabbed directly on to the spots.

I had also started washing my face as soon as I was able, which was about three days after the procedure, with a whitening soap.  They have a ton to choose from here.  The one I chose was manufactured in Japan and it contains kojic acid.  (Kojic acid is a by-product in the fermentation process of malting rice. - Wikipedia)

*** I avoided the sun as much as possible.  I wore a hat whenever I had to go outside.  The last thing I needed was for these spots to get darker. ***

Below all pictures were taken of me with a freshly washed face and absolutely no make-up in front of my window using natural light.

Photos of me taken May 19, 2014

Photos of me taken May 26, 2014

Photos taken of me June 2, 2014

Photos taken of me June 10, 2014

The spots are fading nicely.  It's only been a few weeks since I started the peeling and whitening treatments but there is a marked improvement on my skin.  I'm confident that in a few more weeks the spots will have faded completely.  The key to this whole process is patience and diligence.  The patience to stay safe and not to overdo/abuse the treatments and to be diligent in doing the treatments regularly and not be discouraged.  And most importantly SUNSCREEN!!!  I'll keep my fingers crossed for continued success.  :-)

(This poem I wrote May 18, 2014 when I received a phone call that my out of town cousins, they live on another island, were in town and three of them whom I had never met before were excited to meet me.  :-(  Feel my panic...)

Panic

I'm in a panic

Surprise!!!

Skin's looking tragic

Where can I hide?

Out of town family

Dragging me out

To play outside

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Another poem I wrote about my predicament.  Written June 5, 2014.

My Mirror

My mirror

She tells no lies

As she scrutinizes

With those intense cunning eyes

'Look at what you've done!'

She accuses

'We've had no sun!

These beautiful days have just gone by

With no merry or rye.

Look at you!

You're so pale

And I swear you appear

More fragile and frail'

But I can't see

I don't believe that's me

'Of course not you silly fool!

Sitting in the dark

Trying to stay cool'

But these awful spots

Ugly brown dots

Scattered here and there

I can't play outside

I don't dare!

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Anxious Respite

Impatient fantasy

Of splendid skies

Bare toes tickled

By verdant turf

Giggles and

Flights of fancy

I toss disarray

In my comfort

Nakedness

Lips parted

In thirst

Impatient

For this interlude

To call it a day

I hunger

For the beginning

Where my blood

Flows below

Earth drenched

In DNA

From whence

I started

I have returned

In anxious respite

Awaiting the arrival

Of my co-conspirator

My partner

My dreamer

My life

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