Tilted Sly

She walks on billowy white clouds

With flowers in her hair

A smile painted on dark red lips

Ambling without a care

Thoughts of the future

Brings a sparkle to her eye

Her impish face can't hide

The glossed lips, tilted sly

Good things will come to pass

She can feel it in her bones

The past is history

The screams and hurtled stones

The glow of radiant happiness

Surrounds her

A glistening protective shield

An unpenetrable barrier

She glides gracefully away

Lost in her musings

As covetous eyes follow

Rapacious and yearning

She continues her journey

With a devilish sparkle in her eye

A smile painted on her dark red lips

Shiny and glossed, tilted sly

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*Allene Angelica*

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Everyday Affairs

The tediousness

Of everyday affairs

The boredom kills me

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*Allene Angelica*

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I Have Nothing

I have nothing

Nothing to say to you

Thoughts of you

Bring emptiness

A vast vacuum

Of hollowness

Can this be all that is left

Of the passion

I once felt?

An all consuming

Mind numbing ardor

That blinded me

From complete candor

Was it a waste?

Of time, of energy

Of vitality?

Your arrogance

I mistook for confidence

But it was selfishness

Self-importance

And conceitedness

My eyes unseeing

Has opened

What once was concealed

Has been revealed

The verity of your soul

Has leaked its hideous goo

Your false and duplicitous nature

Will take its toll

And one day you will rue

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*Allene Angelica*

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Mornings and Night. (Haikus)

Mornings are wretched
When you have to go to work
I hunger for sleep

Mornings are lovely
When you are on holiday
I crave for breakfast

The night is mystic
It cloaks its secrets in ink
Where ever you are


*Allene Angelica*
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Does He Know?

I brush my fingers

Through midnight coils

Long ebony lashes

Flutters

Does he know?

I tip toe daintily

Up and down

Hills and valleys

To velvet moans

Does he know?

Astride my heart's desire

I gallop towards a wanton bliss

Only he can inflict

Does he know?

With every tumultuous sway

Beads transudes

From a porous shell

Does he know?

Fires burn from within

Ignited with one scorching glance

One heated touch

One sultry kiss

Does he know?

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*Allene Angelica*

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To Begin Again

In an old attic

I explored

Moldy, cracked boxes and steamer trunks

Littered the floor

Clothes; ancient, moth-eaten and musty

Dust bunnies, centuries old

Hiding in every nook and cranny

Discarded, scattered and jumbled here and there

Were odds and ends, knick knacks, thing-of-a-jigs

It made me wonder

If I touch them, will the original owners although long gone care?

I rifled

And sorted

Investigated

And recorded

I was beside myself

With awe and pleasure

And pleasure and awe

Amazed at all the treasure

My two not so young eyes saw

Through the dim and faded light

I lit upon an old book or maybe a journal

Where a person of long ago might write

Sitting innocently on an old corner desk

As if waiting

Waiting patiently for me

For me to come a calling

My fingers trembled and shook

As I reached out for the book

I caressed its worn leather binding

Traced the gold and intricate carving

I opened the cover

To my delight

There was a title written there

'To Begin Again' it said

But no author anywhere

I turned the page

It was blank

I flipped to the next few

And my heart sank

The pages were empty

Disappointed I sat

I sat staring at the title

Is that all there is to that?

Finally as the light dimmed lower

I stood up and made my way

To the attic ladder

As I climbed down with book in hand

I thought to myself

Maybe this was a sign

Maybe it's my time

To start writing in this book

To give my life another look

And begin again.

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*Allene Angelica*

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*Allene Angelica*

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My Fun & Exciting Weekend With LMC

I had a very interesting weekend this weekend.  I had expected my Easter weekend to be a quiet and mellow affair but my instructor, Leslie, had other plans.  Let me give you some background.  I workout out three times a week at a gym but I only take the dance workout classes (Zumba, Ujam, etc...) because it's what I enjoy.  One of my favorite teachers is a professionally trained dancer as well as a musician and singer.  I think she's awesome!  Well last Wednesday she asked me, my sister and another student of hers from a different gym to dance with her for an Easter gig she was offered at the last minute.  She had one day (Thursday) to make up the choreography, one night (Friday) to teach it to us and then rehearsal with the other performers and rapper on Saturday.  Sunday morning we performed.  We joked around on Friday night that we were the 'Last Minute Crew' (LMC)  It was an amazing experience.  I was terrified but got through it and enjoyed it immensely   If she were to ask me again I would definitely say yes!  But even if she doesn't it was an experience I'll look back on with a smile on my face.

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*Allene Angelica*

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Mole Removal Experiment - Part 3

I know it's been a while since I've updated you on my experiment. Well the reasons are:

1. I haven't been consistent because honestly I got tired of smelling vinegar.

2. I ran out of Bandaids.

3. I truly believe I have a supermole on my hands. I swear it's impervious to bullets, speeding trains and can probably leap over tall buildings in a single bound. Seriously!

But all is not lost! I can say that I have seen progress. My mole has flattened somewhat, albeit slightly slanted but flattened nonetheless! This weekend I will arm myself with fresh supplies and I will continue my ongoing saga of 'Allene vs Supermole'! Fear not! I will succeed!

*Allene Angelica*
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Broken Bones

With broken bones

I stand

Limp, ragged

Body

Coursing with pain

Needles and pins

Knives and swords

Protruding

From the cracked shell

Of my form

I stagger

Crooked steps

One more painful

Than the other

Where do I go?

To hide and mend

To crawl and cower

To cry and lament

To heal and recover?

I stand

I stagger

Towards the setting sun

Limp and ragged

Taking crooked

And broken steps

One more painful

Than the other.

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*Allene Angelica*

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The Scourge (Poets of G+ Prompt of the Week - Molotov Cocktail)

***Last night I made changes to this piece because I was so not happy with it.  I can't make the change on G+ because it would disqualify me but I'm making the change here.  The rhythm was off and it was driving me crazy.  I think now the rhythm is better and the ending doesn't seem as chopped off as before.  I hope you agree.***

The Scourge

The dark scourge's heart thumps

In a dark recess of my town

Da dump da dump

Its roots buried deep

Opaque tentacles slithers silently

From street to street

Searching, searching

Skulking, sneaking

Always creeping

For its next prey

It is ravenous

I can sense its hunger

The stomach cavernous

It howls in desperation

It hasn't fed in months

Forced in isolation

Its prey has evolved

Smarter, quicker

More resolved

Out of reach

From its inviting talons

Talons, poison-tipped each

Fear oozes

From its pores

For death will soon be

Knocking down its door

I walk through the silent street

I know where the heart lays

I've heard it beat

Thumping, humping

Seducing, inviting

In my left hand

My weapon of choice

I will take my stand

A bottle of premium burns the best

I always say

In my right, my street chrome zippo

To help light my way

My fuel soaked rag, lit

I stare at my target

The time has come to end it!

To burn, burn, burn it!

Flames lick at my skin

As I ready my stance

My pitch is true

The blaze dance

It meets its mark

The thing screeches and shrieks

While I watch in the dark

Its death is final

We can now and forever breathe

And ease our vigil

But I stand alert

You never know

What is buried

Deep down in the dirt.

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*Allene Angelica*

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I Dance Through The Green

The prompt for the week in the Google+ community I'm in (Poets of G+) was this picture.  These are the words that came to mind.  Not quite happy with it but that is life.

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*Allene Angelica*

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Analog Tears

I ran towards the jingle jangle

Small thin fingers

Grasped the handle

Whispers, whispers, whispers

Of fears

Dancing in the air

My heart pounding in my ears

No sound from trembling lips

Only through analog tears.

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*Allene Angelica*

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Mole Removal Experiment - Apple Cider Vinegar - Part 2

Day 12: Today is Thursday, February 28, 2013. Well, when I woke up this morning the blackened area had spread just a tiny bit north and my mole now feels rough on most of the surface, I'd say about 80%. I scraped the mole a little more aggressively than my usual MO, even scraped some of the scab off, and applied the ACV once again. I am so used to the stinging tingle now that I am no longer fazed by it. I was only able to leave it on for about 30-45 minutes because the bandaid I used started to slide off. I'm pretty sure it got some vaseline on the tape portion. After removing the ACV bandage, I was surprised to find my mole looks even bigger than before and it has frosted white all over. After a few minutes some of the white diminished and the black scab started to peek through. I think my mole is dying. I am feeling positive and upbeat because I'm seeing the expected cause and effect. My niece's birthday dinner party is on Saturday. I really hope my mole doesn't look too terrible. I wonder if concealer will cover it.

Before applying ACV bandage

After removing bandage.  The mole has frosted white

Frost diminishing and the black showing through

Day 13: Today is Friday, March 1, 2013. I just applied another ACV bandage on my mole and sitting here staring at myself 13 days into this little venture of mine and I'm starting to have my doubts about if I am making a HUGE mistake. Wiggle, wiggle, wiggle. Wiggle, wiggle, wiggle. I just shook off my negative thoughts. Positive reinforcement! I'm going to do this! I'm just so tired...of smelling like vinegar. Grrrr... There are people that I've read about online where their moles turned black and fell off within 5 days!!! Why couldn't have that happened to me? I know why...because I'm scared to poke holes in my mole with a needle! I'm really hoping that my mole is shallow and not rooted too deeply below the first few layers of my skin. Although I wouldn't care if after the mole falls off and I'm left with a small crater where the mole used to be. Better that than the raised mole that becomes irritated whenever I blow my nose a couple of times.

Day 16:  Today is Monday, March 4, 2013.  Oh my gosh!  This morning while I was getting ready for work the blackened area that had scabbed, fell off when I blew my nose.  (Allergy attack all day)  Something is happening!  I'm feeling upbeat and positive again.  :)

To be continued...

*Allene Angelica*
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Mole Removal Experiment - Apple Cider Vinegar (Part 1)

"Moles are growths on the skin that are usually brown or black.  Moles can appear anywhere on the skin alone or in groups.

Most moles appear in early childhood and during the first 30 years of a person's life. It is normal to have between 10-40 moles by adulthood.

As the years pass, moles usually change slowly, becoming raised and/or changing color. Often, hairs develop on the mole. Some moles may not change at all, while others may slowly disappear over time.

Moles occur when cells in the skin grow in a cluster instead of being spread throughout the skin. These cells are called melanocytes, and they make the pigment that gives skin its natural color. Moles may darken after exposure to the sun, during the teen years, and during pregnancy." - WebMD

WebMD - Moles

I've decided to try to remove my mole using a natural method, Apple Cider Vinegar or ACV.  It took me a long time to make this decision because until recently my facial mole never really bothered me.  I've had it for years.  I don't exactly remember when it popped up but it had to have been in my early teens or maybe earlier.  It's just a part of me and I've always thought it made me unique.  I've notice recently in the last couple of years that it has grown a little bit larger and with me suffering from allergies on a regular basis, because it is directly below one of my nostrils, it has on occasion become painful from rubbing against tissue when I blow my nose.  I've had it checked by my dermatologist and it's not cancerous or suspicious in any way.  She also told me that to have it removed I would need a plastic surgeon because of the placement of the mole.  That could cost me thousands of dollars!  No thank you.

I've read several blogs, sites and forums regarding mole removal using ACV, Castor Oil, Iodine, garlic and so on.  From the comments and suggestions ACV seems to have a high success rate.  There are several different instructions to choose from.  I chose the most simplest one out there because these are items I already have in my home.

Apple Cider Vinegar Treatment For Moles

You'll need:

1.     Apple Cider Vinegar

2.    Cotton balls

3.    Cotton Swabs (Q-tips)

4.    Emery Board

5.    Band-Aids

6.    Vaseline

Clean the mole and surrounding area.  Abrade the mole lightly with an emery board and then soak a piece of cotton in apple cider vinegar.  Coat the healthy skin around the mole with vaseline to protect it from the acid.  Place the cotton on the mole and hold it in place with a bandaid.  Leave it on for 15 minutes, some people have left it on overnight.

Day 1:  Today is Sunday, February 17, 2013.  I cleaned the mole and the surrounding area.  After drying I took a cotton swab, dabbed some vaseline on to the skin surrounding the mole. (This is to protect the surrounding skin from the ACV because ACV contains acid that might irritate the skin.)  Once done I took a cotton ball and pulled off a small piece, the piece was about the size of my mole and soaked it in ACV.  I then placed the small cotton soaked with ACV directly on my mole after squeezing the excess from it and held in place using a bandaid.  Using a timer I left it on for 15 minutes.  I didn't seem to have a reaction to it.  Some people said that their mole and the surrounding skin was burned or irritated.  It did not have that effect on me.  Maybe because I didn't scrape my mole?  I have no idea but no nothing so far.  Let's see what tomorrow brings.

Day 2:  Today is Monday, February 18, 2013.  I applied the ACV exactly as I did yesterday but the only difference is I left it on for an hour instead of 15 minutes.  I felt no discomfort, no irritation or burning sensation.  Hmmm...I wonder if it's doing anything at all?

Day 3:  Today is Tuesday, February 19, 2013.  Today I got a little impatient because as of this morning (I put some ACV on the mole with a Q-tip when I woke up) I still had not felt any burning sensation like everyone has written or vlogged about that has tried this method.  So after work, around 5:30 pm, I cleaned the mole and surrounding area and after drying and putting vaseline on the healthy skin I scraped the mole softly with an emery board before placing a piece of cotton soaked in ACV on it and held it in place with a bandaid.  Boy did it burn baby burn!  It didn't burn like in painful I'm going to die of the pain burn it was more like a strong chemical peel type of burn which I can handle because I've had plenty of chemical peels done on my face.  After an hour I removed the ACV bandage.  Around 8:30 pm I got ready for bed and while brushing my teeth I debated whether or not to do the ACV again.  The masochist in me decided to put it on one more time before actually going to sleep.  No scraping this time.  It still burned but not like earlier.  Now I'm debating whether or not to leave it on overnight.  If it was in any other place I would have no problem making the decision to sleep with it on but because it's right below my nostril I'm not sure if I'll be comfortable enough to sleep with half of my nostril covered and inhaling vinegar all night.  It has me craving fish and chips already.

Day 5:  Today is Thursday, February 21, 2013.  So I ended up not leaving the ACV on overnight on Tuesday.  I just couldn't do it but tonight I am.  I'm getting ready to go to sleep and I've just finished bandaging the ACV to my mole after softly scraping it with an emery board.  I skipped putting it on last night (Wednesday).  I was just too tired.  I hope the ACV doesn't irritate/burn the skin around my mole.  Right now all I'm feeling is a stinging sensation in the mole's general area.  I don't know if it's just the mole that is stinging or if the skin around it is included in the mix.

Day 7:  Today is Saturday, February 23, 2013.  I've just finished taping another dose of ACV on my mole.  No stinging at all tonight.  I'm kind of disappointed.  When I woke up yesterday morning after leaving the ACV on all night I found that the skin around my mole was slightly burned from the acid.  I guess I didn't do a good enough job of layering on the vaseline.  Tonight what I decided to do was cut off one end of a bandaid, regular tape would have done but I didn't have any on hand, and placed it on the skin right beneath my mole and layered vaseline on top of the tape and around the edges so the acid would not be able to seep through.  I hope that works in keeping the skin protected.  So far I haven't seen any change to the mole, none what so ever.  Maybe my mole is a supermole, impervious to acids, bullets and general rough housing?  But true to form, I will not give up!  I AM as stubborn as my family and friends accuse me of.

Day 8:  Today is Sunday, February 24, 2013.  I did another application this morning and left it on for 2 hours.  When I removed the bandage I couldn't believe my eyes.  The mole seems to have gotten larger!  I don't know if that is a good sign or not.  It has me a little worried.  Later in the day I did another application and left it on for an hour.  No change.  I applied it again in the evening for another couple of hours and again no change.  It is still enlarged.  I read in one website that it does happen occasionally.  I'm going to stick it out and continue.  My mole seems to be as stubborn as I am.

Day 11:  Today is Wednesday, February 27, 2013.  My mole is starting to turn black and scab in one area, the bottom left side of the mole.  The part that has turned black and scabbed feels rough but it's mostly on the surface of the mole.  I don't think it has penetrated beyond the first couple of layers.  The area that hasn't turned black is still brown and soft.  Tonight I scraped the soft areas of the mole with an emery board and applied the ACV soaked cotton.  I will leave it on overnight.  I am so excited that I am finally seeing progress.

To be continued...

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*Allene Angelica*

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Update - Red LED Light Treatment for my Eczema and Chemical Peel

I haven't talked about my eczema in a while, that's because it hasn't reoccurred.  I pull out my red LED light occasionally to use it when my skin feels irritated but honestly I haven't used it in over six months.  I am so thankful I discovered that light.  It has really kept me sane.  I am again in the middle of a chemical peel treatment series.  Last night was my third treatment.  (I used a 35% Glycolic-Lactic acid mixture)  I didn't do my neck or my decolletage area this time.  I'll save that for this weekend.  My skin this morning feels soft, smooth and tight maybe a little raw (my cheeks have a slight red tinge) but I know that those are signs that the peeling is about to commence in the next few days.  For this series I'm going to do six treatments, once every week to a week and a half and then my girlfriends and I are going to get together at a spa in a couple of months to do a microdermabrasion treatment.  The microdermabrasion should get rid of any stubborn excess flaky skin that might still be clinging to my face.  I can't wait!  This weekend I also need to take care of my hair.  It's in desperate need of a lot of things; color, hot oil treatment, a trim...etc...  I'm not sure I'll be able to accomplish all but I'll certainly try.

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*Allene Angelica*

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