Maybe Both

Oftentimes I wonder

If it's the look

Of anger

Or is it covet

I see

In their eyes

As it flashes on

Something

They cannot have

Maybe both

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2015

Consumed With Thoughts of the Past

So here I sit consumed with thoughts of the past.  I'm on the third 'Sara Woodbury" novel.  Her time travel series!  I love how she takes a part of history and incorporates it and transforms it into a fantasy fiction sci-fi type of story.  I'd never in my life been interested in the country of Wales.  I knew that it's a part of England but that was the extent of my knowledge.  When I read "Daughter of Time" it started a curiosity in me and I looked online for Cymry (Wales) and Llewelyn ap Gruffydd, the last Prince of Wales.  Reading her books brought Llewelyn back to life and turned him into a hero of Wales, a unifier of Wales.  Someone who I rooted for, not only for him but his descendants and trusted allies, as well.  He was someone who in reality was betrayed by everyone around him but in her books he had family and trusted allies who loved and cared for him.  Rather than just the cold hard facts of a history book, her books took the facts, read between lines and imagined a different life for our tragic hero.  Where in reality he was betrayed, beheaded and his head set up over the gate at the Tower of London for over 15 years without a son to carry his vision into the next generation, the hope of Wales as an independent country died with him, in her stories he lived, he loved and begot an heir.  What can I say, there is something compelling about sword fights, battles and intrigue with a splash of romance thrown in, not too much but just enough.

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*Allene Angelica*

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Vlogs

My daughter and I had a short discussion last night regarding vloggers.  It was a very brief discussion consisting of short precise text messages expressing her incomprehension of why vloggers vlog.  Most of the vlogs she has watched were boring in her opinion and hard to get through but she does enjoy the ones with comical skits.  It got me thinking...I've read a few articles from writers of the opinion that vloggers just want their five minutes of fame or a step up the ladder to fame and fortune.  Whatever the reasons...I think it's similar to why people blog just a bit more obvious, they are putting their face out there for the whole world to see.  Maybe they are expressing themselves in the only way they know how.  Maybe they feel more comfortable speaking in front of a camera while I for instance feel better writing or typing my feelings, opinions, etc... down on paper or my blog site.  Do I care if anyone reads it?  Not really...it's just my thoughts and experiences that I need to put somewhere.  I have had tons of journals over the years and tucked in to those journals are pieces of scratch paper, napkins, whatever I could get my hands on at the time to jot down thoughts, poems or ideas.  Most of them I've lost or burned never to be seen again, especially my racier ones.  When I die I don't need evidence for my children or my grandchildren to find and read just how passionate their mother or grandmother used to be, not that it would make any difference, I'd be dead.  I've kept my online blogs fairly tame.  Nothing to read years later and blush about.  Although if my children were to ever get their sticky little fingers on my journals and read them I'm sure they would just laugh and think to themselves..."That's our Mommy!"

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*Allene Angelica*

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Magic in the A.M.

Although it's uncomfortably cold at 5:30 am and I'm so layered in hoodies I look like an Eskimo, I love it when I walk my dog and notice the grass glistening with iced dew.  With the silent streets, the chill in the air and the grass sparkling as the street lights shine on them, it feels like magic.

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*Allene Angelica*

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I Don't Know What People Are Talking About

People tell me that I don't look old enough to have a twenty-three year old daughter but I look in the mirror and all I see are the ravages of time. I feel old. Especially this week. It's been a very brutal week. Stress, stress and more stress. I believe it was Tuesday or Wednesday night that I woke up at 12:30 a.m. with major lower back and stomach pains. I couldn't lay down comfortably in any position, sitting up was also impossible. I took a couple of extra strength Tylenols and an hour later it dulled the pain enough for me to get back to sleep. And then for the rest of the week the pain in my lower back has persisted. Even now as I sit here typing I feel it. Maybe I need to start doing yoga again. I don't know...

*Allene Angelica*
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I Don't Mean to Offend But...

So, I read an article today, probably on Yahoo somewhere, I can't really remember exactly where I saw it.  You know how cyberspace works...we flip through millions of information a day between that and actual work by the time you get home your brain is exhausted.  Anyways, back to the main topic, I read that scientists did a study on college students to find out how many times realistically do men and women think about sex.  They found that the men thought about sex over 300 times a day while the women thought about sex around 140 times a day.  Huge difference!  Well then that got my brain thinking back on an asian anime that I watched a year or so ago, I'm sure it was rated R.  Well, this particular anime was majorly gory, I couldn't watch the entire series but I do remember clearly this one episode where a woman was being guarded because she committed some sort of offense and because she was miserable she wasn't eating enough and had lost a lot of weight.  The two guards guarding her were talking about her weightloss and made a comment that she was so thin that when she bends over while bathing they can see her butth--e and that it was so unattractive.  I was like "Really?".  So of course you know what I had to do, don't you?  I went over to my wall mirror and bent over...hahaha...and was relieved to find that I had enough junk in my trunk...hahaha...  So back to men thinking about sex over 300 times a day...I wonder if one of those times during the day if that particular thought passes through their brain?  Well, as for me, if us women think about sex 140 times a day, I'd say that thought has crossed my mind today about 10 times already.  And when I see an especially thin woman my mind wonders.....hmmmm....