I Bid You Adieu

Am I actually going to write this?

For the whole world to see?

The end of this year

Is a blessing to me

I've made drastic changes

To a life gone stale

A life that was literally

Killing me

But in this it has failed

I met a man

Who lent me his strength

At a time I needed it most

The distance or length

That we are apart

Makes no difference to me

For he has my heart

To 2013 I bid you adieu

Farewell to the moments

Here's a parting kiss for you

I welcome 2014 with open arms

And fly to my man

With his devilish charms

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2013

*Allene Angelica*

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Seraphim - Curiosity

Through the darkness

I glimpsed a fiery glow

Slowly I inched closer

My curiosity had to know

As I neared

My mind conjured

Every scenario I feared

My body warmed

From the heat of the blaze

I felt no pain

Just a bit dizzy, in a daze

On I went

My steps did not falter

Flames slashed, singed and rent

My garb, and still

It did not hamper

Me, For I felt

Compelled you see

To finish this through

Until finally

I stood in front

Of a sight so extraordinary

I am surprised I did not turn blue

With my heart

Pounding in my ears

I was afraid

I would not hear

The message he would give

Eyes of fiery red

I will not soon forget

For as long as I live

Between wings of gold, folded

Over a blazing form

Behind him feathers twinkled

A glittering storm

Then I heard

A voice thundering through

Lips unseen

"For all that is holy,

With all that is holy,

From all that is holy

I have come for you..."

*Allene Angelica*

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Blood of Blue

I have floated

Lost

In an endless

Turmoil

Of my faults

Searching

Crying out

With outstretched hands

Blood of blue dripping

From my inner scream

That sometimes

I don't know

What is real

Or what it is I dream

On high

I looked down

Watched the world

Go round

Wrote a stanza or two

Wrapped

In my feathered wings

Stained

With my blood

And then

I spied

You

Your eyes of blue

Crinkling with laughter

As your words

Flew across the page

That day

Was the start

Of a brand new age

*Allene Angelica*

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The Lines

The lines

I hate the lines

Straight, crooked

Curved, crossing

This way and that

They show character

What the hell does that mean?

All they show is age.

*Allene Angelica*

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Still

Thousands of miles separate

Still, I hear your voice

Living different lives

Still, I hear your voice

My eyes cannot stop

The flow of tears

When I hear your voice

My heart wants to hate

When I hear your voice

Can you not feel pity

For my poor soul?

Who is fool enough

To love you?

To give up my heart completely?

No one else can take your place

It's unbearable

My thoughts

My imaginings of what you are doing

Untamed

The beauty that surrounds you

For you to indulge

As you please

While I fade away

Become nothing but a memory

And still, I hear your voice

I hear your voice promising forever

*Allene Angelica*

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Tolerable

It's a cold winter night

As a I stifle

A shiver

I pull my jacket

Even tighter

Around me

As if it would

Warm me

Any better

I look out

Into the blackness

Distorted

By my heat

I wish morning

Would come

It's too cold

To sleep

I roll over

Trying to find comfort

But this hard

Old leather seat

Just isn't comfortable

Tonight

I wish the sun

Would rise

It would make

The cold

So much more

Tolerable

A little warmth

Would be a

Welcome respite

*Allene Angelica*

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Ancient

I am one

Of the ancients

Rooted to this earth

For thousands

Of years

My arms

Reached out

Heavenward

In praise

Once upon a time

So long ago

Now I cry

Silent tears

I stand alone

My family and friends

Long gone

Cut down

In their prime

Until all that is left

Is me

Rigid solitude

In howling plea

For life to return

To how it use to be

I am

Surrounded by tar

And metal

Contraptions that roll

Expelling noxious fumes

Slowly taking its toll

Animals

The two legged kind

Pass me by

Some stop to ask and pray

Protected by my shade

Take a piss

Then walk away

*Allene Angelica*

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It Rises

The bile

Is slowly

Rising

No mere words can

Describe

How I feel

Why

Must I struggle

Within myself

It tears

And heals

And tears again

Like

A roller coaster ride

It terrifies

While

It exhilarates

And still

The bile

Is slowly

Rising

How many times

Can a wound

Be ripped

Open

Stitched

And be torn asunder

Again and again

Before

It can no longer mend

And remains

A gaping hole

Festering unseen

Still it rises

The first stab

Is always

The most

Excruciating

The attacks

Thereafter

Leave you numb

It rises

And rises

And rises

Until you

Can

No longer

Do anything

But spew forth

The venom

In your soul

The pain

In your heart

The hatred

Concealed

Undetected

Within

Your form

Until

At last

You

Are spent

Relieved

And you

Are once again

Free

To open

Yourself

To a new

Experience

A new

Adventure

A new

Love

(Written on Dec. 13, 2003)

*Allene Angelica*

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I Was Wrong

I look to the moon

For answers

It's cool glow

Soothes me

On this warm

Tropical night

I sit at my window

Beckoning her

In her wisdom

To reveal

That what

I search for

Will soon be

In sight

Oh my love

I've told you

"Let me lie in your arms

And feel heaven

Even for just one night

For it will last me

A lifetime"

But I

Was not right

I was wrong

For one night

Is not enough

It is just a teaser

An appetizer

A preview

Of what my life

Could be

A future

Of you and me

For all eternity

*Allene Angelica*

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A Future Alone

I hear the loneliness

That you scream

Softly

In their ears

I hear the crying

As you bleed tears

Of pain

I am helpless

To do anything

But feel shame

I see the patterns

That you draw

In your house of straw

The wolves

Have blown it down

But still you insist

To go another round

My hands are tied

You are your own

All I see is

A future where

You are alone

*Allene Angelica*

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In Your Mind's Eye (Originally Written August 16, 2003)

Once again you have broken my heart

Dreams are shattered

Ripped apart

Why do I love you?

Why do I care?

The pain inside is too hard to bare

My love you have taken in your cold grasp

Wielded a knife

And slashed it in half

I trembled in fear and rage

I'm frightened of what I'll find

When I turn the page

Will you be there

Standing above

What is left of my remains?

Poised and self-assured

That I am powerless, beaten and tamed?

You snicker with glee

Because
In your mind's eye

You have exactly what you want in me

*Allene Angelica*

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Turned Me Away (Originally Written October 3, 2005)

I would have drowned

Willingly

In the deep green sea

Swirling with excitement

Turbulence and uncertainty

Thrilled in the passionate pounding

Of the violent waves

Against my bruised form

The iridescent foam

Tickling and teasing

Dissolving

At my touch

Keeping me

In a never ending cycle

A nightmare

That would have

Gradually driven me

To insanity

I stumbled

Into a clear

Glassy lake

It seduced me

with its purity

I floated

On

Its soft steady

Ripples

Its warm water

Gently

Enveloping me

Into its fold

Turned me away

From the sea

And filled me

With promises

Of serenity

Swimming away

in peaceful

Eternity

*Allene Angelica*

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Mantodea

Mantodea

Of Bologna

Flew into

My arms

To do

The rhumba

I told him

"No!"

My hand

Held

'Like so'

"I am strictly

Absolutely salsa!"

He turned

To me

With his

Large wide set

Eyes

And said

"You are

So vanilla."

With fire

I did not

Know I had

I kicked ball

Changed

Him

All the way

to Manila

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2013

*Allene Angelica*

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Run Far Away (Originally Written November 26, 2004)

Run, run, run away

For you see

In his lustful eyes

And beguiling ways

A future

He can not disguise

Full of hurt

And wanton needs

Full of obsession

And misery

It is best

To run away

And protect yourself

From the onslaught

Of lies

And duplicity

Better to set sail

For smooth

Calm waters

Than sail

Towards

A brewing storm

That will leave you

Broken and torn

Only to limp home

To mend and patch

The shattered pieces

Of your life

Oh, but oh

The mortal eyes

Can see

And the mind

Can know

But it is

The heart

The lust

The heat

Between

Your thighs

That sets

Your feet racing

Towards

A road

That leads

Nowhere

But a

Dead end

A crippled heart

And lost dreams

(Written November 26, 2004)

*Allene Angelica*

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She Has Arrived (Haiyan)

She has arrived

All swirling fury

Intense

In her ferocity

She has made

Her presence known

Surging through

Our lives

Affecting everything

We own

With no compassion

Choosing without

Prejudice

Complete

In her fairness

Discards any and all

As if

Of no value

No consequence

Any presumption

Of surviving

Her wrath

Without

Seeking shelter

Is your folly

I will not aid

In your lunacy

I watch through

Open window

As she tugs

At my hair

Her fingers

Slices

My strands

Urging me

To meet her

In her element

I turn

My back

As she howls

In outrage

She rains

Her terror

Swipes what

She can reach

Planters fall

Jagged pieces

Lay at my feet

Patiently

I will wait

Her anger

Will soon abate

She will

Move on

To greener

Pastures

And the sun

Shall once again

Come out

Of hiding

For he has

No love for her

Nor does he

Have the energy

Of fighting

*Allene Angelica*

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