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Saturday, July 5, 2014

Anon (Warning: Strong Language)


Another sleepless night
Another day without light
Send me off
Send me off
To oblivion I beseech
While the moon rides high
And the stars glitter in the sky
Anon, anon
Caresses my mind
But it was just a figment
A mirage
So it's
Another sleepless night
Another day
Without light

Fuck this shit
I sound like a whiny car
Coming out of an
Air guitar
I'll head out
To the bar
Have a couple
Of brewskis
Better than any
Sleeping pill
By far

Without a doubt
Peace
Out


Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Wisteria





I'm held suspended
In unknowns

Waiting...

The tick
Of the clock
Is stuck
On never ending tock

Will the boom I hear
Reverberate
In my ear?

Yes

Through the silence
A quake
That shakes
Me to the core
As I bolt for the door

Not knowing the reason

Why?
Did I fly?

With no return ticket
For a seat
In my old jalopy
Under the wisteria
Canopy

Blood rises
As the prize
Deflates in size
And I agonize
Over the unit
As a whole

You see where
My mind has gone?

Me neither

Maybe I'll just float here
Until the sharks
Come around
For another round
While I dream of hysteria
Oh, I mean wisteria

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Unrestrained



My feet
Small, delicate
Oiled in lavender
Whisper softly
Across your
Bare of a back
Caressing words
Of love
Timelessly

Unrestrained

Arms held
Aloft
Sprinkled
With jasmine
At the ready
For flight
Fingers frolic
Dancing words
Of freedom
Absolutely

Unrestrained

My head
Crowned
With orchids
Thrown back
In pleasure
Hair in
Titillating
Disarray
Cooing words
Unreadable
Blissfully

Unrestrained


Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Morning Stroll



I took a morning stroll today
Peering happily at the stormy gray
Armed to the hilt
From the USA
But probably made in China

Favorite comfy sweater
Blarney Woolen Mills
Made in Ireland
That I inherited so long ago
In another life
From people I used to know

It has travelled
A very long way
Bought in the land
Where Leprechauns play
Put in a suitcase
To Califor-nigh-yay
Then to the Philippines
Where I'm sure it will not stay

That old girl
Still has some mileage left
She's ready and willing
To give the world
A twirl

Now if only my body
Didn't creak so loudly
As I moved it along
I'd show her
That this little gal
Is still going strong

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

Monday, June 30, 2014

Blitz Attack

Tumescent
From the blitz attack
Gasped silent
An explosion of
Incandescent flames
Fiery heat
My tongue bears your name


Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

Thursday, June 26, 2014

I'm Undone



I'm undone
Memories come
Unbidden
Why not stay
Hidden
Tucked away
In the deepest
Recesses
Of my mind
My lips
Unkind
Spurt unfiltered
Thoughts
To unburden
My pain
Storming words
Thundering rain
It's not even
Worth it
Not even
A little bit
So why
Must I

Hurt


Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Nightmares



Trapped
In a maze
No way out

A mafia
Of circuitry

Buzzing
Buzzing
Buzzing

Flickering
Images
Moving
Pictures
Upstairs

My response
A ticker
Going pitter patter
In a cage
Ready to
Explode
As I rode
In a car
But couldn't
Get far

The buzzards
Circling
Turning heads
I scream

My eyes
Snap open

Thank God
I thought
I was broken

But they
Were just
Nightmares

Relief floods
As I stare out

At another
Cloud-filled
Day


Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

Sunday, June 22, 2014

Whet




I live
And breathe
For
The surge
That flows
Through
My cells
That sizzles
My nerves
That curls
My toes
That whets
My appetite
With
Every
Thought
Of
You


Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

Saturday, June 21, 2014

Horseshoe Simile



Though you smile
Lips upturned
Horseshoe simile

The sadness inside
Jogs out for miles
I sit in quiet solitude
Waiting
For you
To open up to me

You pivot away
To adjust your facade
Speaking of lightness
And gaiety

But, behold, your eyes
They tell no lies
They declare
Your misery

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Three Little Things

I was asked to participate in the #threelittlethings challenge on G+.  (I decided to copy it on to my blog to record what was important to me at this stage of my life.)  Basically, it is to list three things a day for three days, for which I am grateful, and invite three people to do the same.  (I left the names out of the blog.). I'm starting my first day with the heavies...

The three things I'm grateful for:

Day one:

1. Meeting my love, Phil Hall.
2. My children; Angelique, Shane and James.
3. My life



The three things I'm grateful for on this second day of #threelittlethings are:

Day Two:

1. My health, so far so good.  Knock on wood.
2. My hat, protects me from the burning rays of the sun and just all
    around cool.  :-)
3. My iPad, with it I have written countless poems and started
    many a story.  Some I've completed but many more unfinished.



The three things I'm grateful for on this third and last day of my #threelittlethings challenge are:

Day Three:

1. My pocket wifi - Internet wherever I go...as long as there is a signal.  (Can't
    stop the signal Mal. - 'Serenity' movie reference for all not in the know ;-p )
2. Sunscreen - Speaks for itself
3. Mosquito Repellent - Keeps the bloodsucking bitches away from
  me...ooops...did I say that?  I meant unwanted pests... (It's the female of
  the species that drinks blood.)




Green




The blood
Has blackened green
It runs greedily
Through their veins

No time to congeal
As they conjure
Magically steal

Eyes burn
Can see no more
I'm ashamed
This is what I came for?

So sad
It's too bad
Nothing good
Ever comes
From
The gimmies
I don't care
How much you shimmy

The lyrics
'I give to the needy
And not the greedy'ª
On replay
In my head

Sometimes
I feel like
This world
Is better off
Dead

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

ª'My Lovin' - En Vogue 1992

Sunday, June 15, 2014

I Shall Roam




The world is beckoning
Enticing me to explore
Oh, I would if I could
I would walk out that door

Then reality sets in
I have responsibilities
I can not give in
But squelching the desire
Is not good for the soul
I must feed the fire
Even if only a little
To see the world
Is my goal

One step, two steps
The third makes three
Where will my
First destination be?

Be it with friend
Be it with lover
Be it alone
I've taken my steps
The world
I shall roam

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

Formidable Foe



Time
A formidable foe
As I gaze
At this scene
So quiet
And serene
Lush
In its
Tropical greens

I long
To explore
This wild
Landscape
My dreamy
Escape
From the
Confines
Of my
Solitary mind

My laughter
Echoing
From
The tree tops
As I break
Another of
My flip flops

Stomping
Skipping
Tip-toeing

In this scene
Of
Tropical greens
Smiling
Sunbeams


Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

Monday, June 9, 2014

My Adventures in Cautery (Part Two)

*** Caution - Before attempting to try to do any of the following treatments that I've described below...please...please...please...do a patch test before using any of these products on your entire face. ***


On May 19th, I started an intense beauty regimen of at home peeling and whitening to aggressively fade the brown spots/scars on my face.  Three nights a week (Mon-Wed) I swiped on a peeling agent that contained tretinoin (Tretinoin is the carboxylic acid form of vitamin A and is also known as all-trans retinoic acid or ATRA. - Wikipedia) and hydroquinone (In human medicine, hydroquinone is used as a topical application in skin whitening to reduce the color of skin. - Wikipedia) (each 100mL contains 25mg of tretinoin and 2g of hydroquinone) over my entire face like you would a toner or astringent with a cotton pad.  The rest of the week I gave my skin a break from the product.  And it's in those days when my skin would peel.  The peeling was annoying because it was unsightly but it gave me the deepest satisfaction.  The top layers of my epidermis where the spots were the darkest was peeling off and revealing a new layer of lighter skin underneath.  During the day after I washed my face I used an intense whitening facial serum that contains glutathione (Glutathione has recently been used as an inhibitor of melanin in the cosmetics industry.) and vitamin C, which I applied over my entire face.  I used it in conjunction with a placenta cream (animal placenta...I know gross right?).  Hey but if it works, it works.  The placenta cream I dabbed directly on to the spots.

I had also started washing my face as soon as I was able, which was about three days after the procedure, with a whitening soap.  They have a ton to choose from here.  The one I chose was manufactured in Japan and it contains kojic acid.  (Kojic acid is a by-product in the fermentation process of malting rice. - Wikipedia)

*** I avoided the sun as much as possible.  I wore a hat whenever I had to go outside.  The last thing I needed was for these spots to get darker. ***

Below all pictures were taken of me with a freshly washed face and absolutely no make-up in front of my window using natural light.

Photos of me taken May 19, 2014




Photos of me taken May 26, 2014




Photos taken of me June 2, 2014



Photos taken of me June 10, 2014



The spots are fading nicely.  It's only been a few weeks since I started the peeling and whitening treatments but there is a marked improvement on my skin.  I'm confident that in a few more weeks the spots will have faded completely.  The key to this whole process is patience and diligence.  The patience to stay safe and not to overdo/abuse the treatments and to be diligent in doing the treatments regularly and not be discouraged.  And most importantly SUNSCREEN!!!  I'll keep my fingers crossed for continued success.  :-)

(This poem I wrote May 18, 2014 when I received a phone call that my out of town cousins, they live on another island, were in town and three of them whom I had never met before were excited to meet me.  :-(  Feel my panic...)

Panic

I'm in a panic
Surprise!!!
Skin's looking tragic
Where can I hide?
Out of town family
Dragging me out
To play outside

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014


Another poem I wrote about my predicament.  Written June 5, 2014.

My Mirror

My mirror
She tells no lies
As she scrutinizes
With those intense cunning eyes

'Look at what you've done!'
She accuses
'We've had no sun!
These beautiful days have just gone by
With no merry or rye.
Look at you!
You're so pale
And I swear you appear
More fragile and frail'

But I can't see
I don't believe that's me

'Of course not you silly fool!
Sitting in the dark
Trying to stay cool'

But these awful spots
Ugly brown dots
Scattered here and there
I can't play outside
I don't dare!


Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Anxious Respite

Impatient fantasy
Of splendid skies
Bare toes tickled
By verdant turf
Giggles and
Flights of fancy

I toss disarray
In my comfort
Nakedness
Lips parted
In thirst
Impatient
For this interlude
To call it a day

I hunger
For the beginning
Where my blood
Flows below
Earth drenched
In DNA
From whence
I started
I have returned
In anxious respite
Awaiting the arrival
Of my co-conspirator
My partner
My dreamer
My life

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014