Anticipation

I have a one track mind. I'm traveling tonight and I'm in the middle of packing. I haven't been able to read and/or write these past few days due to the nervousness, excitement, fear and God knows what else is running through my brain, body, heart and soul. I will be traveling from a balmy temperature of 28°C to a chilly 4°C. (At the time of today's update.) I'm scrounging for every piece of clothing that has long sleeves and I'm barely able to think.

I wrote this piece a few weeks ago in anticipation of today... I dedicate this to a very special man in my life... This is for you Phil Hall... I'm on my way... You better hold on tight...

Anticipation

My heart flutters

In anticipation

I shall grow wings

For you are my destination

My body aches

With desire

My soul

Is on fire

To fly

And finally hear

You sigh

As your lips

Meet mine

I am

Your butterfly

For all of time

Your angel

On your arm

As we walk down

City streets

And your wicked temptress

To match

Your devilish charms

Between the sheets

My love

Soon

I shall be near enough

To touch

To feel

To taste

Your love

Your butterfly

From above

Is soon to land

On the shores

Of 'Aengleland'

To be with her knight

And all will be right

For he is her fantasy

And her vivid reality

Soon

Soon

Soon

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

*Allene Angelica*

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Hold On Tight

Meet me at twilight

Before the inky blackness

Has set upon the sky

Let me witness

The sun set

In your eyes

When our lips

First do meet

Hold on tight

In case my soul

Takes flight

Together we shall walk

Your ancestor's past

My hand in yours

My spirit can't help

But laugh

Soaring above

Our heads so high

Show me wonders

That I've never seen

While our hearts

Bind even tighter

No force can untie

The days shall pass

Too soon

And I will stand

At twilight

Not looking forward

To the moon

With my obsidian orbs

Raining heartfelt goodbyes

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

*Allene Angelica*

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Stake Your Claim

In the heat

I simmer

Dancing to the beat

Of my solo drummer

Gyrating to my lover's call

A foot on the ground

The other

Ready to take the fall

While my hips

Go round and round

My body amplifies

How I feel inside

Each motion intensifies

My passion

Until I'm a roiling mess

Sweat pouring down

Soiling my new silk dress

Oh lover dear

Come to me

Let me whisper

In your ear

I want to make it clear

Stake your claim

Before you, my darling

Drive me insane

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

*Allene Angelica*

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Melancholy

Through her dark and brooding eyes

I see the world

Decayed

Dull and dreary

Through her sad and tear-filled eyes

I see the world

Putrid and corrupt

No hope

For the weary

Through her glum and angry eyes

I see the world

Atrophied

An ever grim

And taxing journey

Through her eyes

I no longer want to see

The world

As black as death

Diseased and gangrened

An age of infirmity

There has to be more

To life

Than

Doom and gloom

Hell and damnation

A viral malady

There has to be

More to life

Than the constant

State of melancholy

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

*Allene Angelica*

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When I Bumped Into Him At A Party

The wine...

Almost spilled

"Excuse me

I'm sorry"

*Gasp*

Oh My God...it's him

Don't touch...Smile

My skin is tingling

Don't look...Smile

I feel his eyes

I can smell him

The scent is

Heaven...Smile

I bought him that for his birthday

Pretend you don't care

You don't see...Smile

The woman

On his arm

Beautiful...Smile

A flash of white

Behind red lips

Too much...Smile

I can't stand it!

Walk out...Smile!

Slowly, calmly

Say your goodbyes

Smile!

Smile!

Smile!

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

*Allene Angelica*

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Maybe I'll Write About It Someday

Through dark and menacing path

I prodded through

Eyes filled with tears

Unshed

Blood poured unseen

From a gouge

On top of my head

Where the knife pierced

My strength

To let fear rule my soul

And let the enemy

With words of love

Take it's fill

While my body went along

With the role

But I continue on

Alive with a glimmer of hope

Barely

Is that light ahead

For me?

Or will I once again

Fall to my knees?

I squint through the blur

Through uneaten fur

And pray that I make it out

Of my torment one day

To smile at my reflection

And say,

"Well that was interesting.

Maybe I'll write about it someday."

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2014

*Allene Angelica*

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I Bid You Adieu

Am I actually going to write this?

For the whole world to see?

The end of this year

Is a blessing to me

I've made drastic changes

To a life gone stale

A life that was literally

Killing me

But in this it has failed

I met a man

Who lent me his strength

At a time I needed it most

The distance or length

That we are apart

Makes no difference to me

For he has my heart

To 2013 I bid you adieu

Farewell to the moments

Here's a parting kiss for you

I welcome 2014 with open arms

And fly to my man

With his devilish charms

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2013

*Allene Angelica*

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Seraphim - Curiosity

Through the darkness

I glimpsed a fiery glow

Slowly I inched closer

My curiosity had to know

As I neared

My mind conjured

Every scenario I feared

My body warmed

From the heat of the blaze

I felt no pain

Just a bit dizzy, in a daze

On I went

My steps did not falter

Flames slashed, singed and rent

My garb, and still

It did not hamper

Me, For I felt

Compelled you see

To finish this through

Until finally

I stood in front

Of a sight so extraordinary

I am surprised I did not turn blue

With my heart

Pounding in my ears

I was afraid

I would not hear

The message he would give

Eyes of fiery red

I will not soon forget

For as long as I live

Between wings of gold, folded

Over a blazing form

Behind him feathers twinkled

A glittering storm

Then I heard

A voice thundering through

Lips unseen

"For all that is holy,

With all that is holy,

From all that is holy

I have come for you..."

*Allene Angelica*

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Blood of Blue

I have floated

Lost

In an endless

Turmoil

Of my faults

Searching

Crying out

With outstretched hands

Blood of blue dripping

From my inner scream

That sometimes

I don't know

What is real

Or what it is I dream

On high

I looked down

Watched the world

Go round

Wrote a stanza or two

Wrapped

In my feathered wings

Stained

With my blood

And then

I spied

You

Your eyes of blue

Crinkling with laughter

As your words

Flew across the page

That day

Was the start

Of a brand new age

*Allene Angelica*

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The Lines

The lines

I hate the lines

Straight, crooked

Curved, crossing

This way and that

They show character

What the hell does that mean?

All they show is age.

*Allene Angelica*

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Still

Thousands of miles separate

Still, I hear your voice

Living different lives

Still, I hear your voice

My eyes cannot stop

The flow of tears

When I hear your voice

My heart wants to hate

When I hear your voice

Can you not feel pity

For my poor soul?

Who is fool enough

To love you?

To give up my heart completely?

No one else can take your place

It's unbearable

My thoughts

My imaginings of what you are doing

Untamed

The beauty that surrounds you

For you to indulge

As you please

While I fade away

Become nothing but a memory

And still, I hear your voice

I hear your voice promising forever

*Allene Angelica*

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Tolerable

It's a cold winter night

As a I stifle

A shiver

I pull my jacket

Even tighter

Around me

As if it would

Warm me

Any better

I look out

Into the blackness

Distorted

By my heat

I wish morning

Would come

It's too cold

To sleep

I roll over

Trying to find comfort

But this hard

Old leather seat

Just isn't comfortable

Tonight

I wish the sun

Would rise

It would make

The cold

So much more

Tolerable

A little warmth

Would be a

Welcome respite

*Allene Angelica*

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Ancient

I am one

Of the ancients

Rooted to this earth

For thousands

Of years

My arms

Reached out

Heavenward

In praise

Once upon a time

So long ago

Now I cry

Silent tears

I stand alone

My family and friends

Long gone

Cut down

In their prime

Until all that is left

Is me

Rigid solitude

In howling plea

For life to return

To how it use to be

I am

Surrounded by tar

And metal

Contraptions that roll

Expelling noxious fumes

Slowly taking its toll

Animals

The two legged kind

Pass me by

Some stop to ask and pray

Protected by my shade

Take a piss

Then walk away

*Allene Angelica*

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It Rises

The bile

Is slowly

Rising

No mere words can

Describe

How I feel

Why

Must I struggle

Within myself

It tears

And heals

And tears again

Like

A roller coaster ride

It terrifies

While

It exhilarates

And still

The bile

Is slowly

Rising

How many times

Can a wound

Be ripped

Open

Stitched

And be torn asunder

Again and again

Before

It can no longer mend

And remains

A gaping hole

Festering unseen

Still it rises

The first stab

Is always

The most

Excruciating

The attacks

Thereafter

Leave you numb

It rises

And rises

And rises

Until you

Can

No longer

Do anything

But spew forth

The venom

In your soul

The pain

In your heart

The hatred

Concealed

Undetected

Within

Your form

Until

At last

You

Are spent

Relieved

And you

Are once again

Free

To open

Yourself

To a new

Experience

A new

Adventure

A new

Love

(Written on Dec. 13, 2003)

*Allene Angelica*

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I Was Wrong

I look to the moon

For answers

It's cool glow

Soothes me

On this warm

Tropical night

I sit at my window

Beckoning her

In her wisdom

To reveal

That what

I search for

Will soon be

In sight

Oh my love

I've told you

"Let me lie in your arms

And feel heaven

Even for just one night

For it will last me

A lifetime"

But I

Was not right

I was wrong

For one night

Is not enough

It is just a teaser

An appetizer

A preview

Of what my life

Could be

A future

Of you and me

For all eternity

*Allene Angelica*

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